Om

I hate life,
Life hates me.
One day death will set me free
From pointless hopes,
Valid fears,
Hopeless effort,
Endless years.
Wasted time
And suffered youth,
A broken heart,
Unpleasant truth.
Tragic stories
Lived, and died.
The misery
I have to hide.
The boring pain
The niggling torture
That come to me like air and water
hen seeping outward from my skin
Infect the world I'm living in.
Spread my poison far and wide,
With compliments, although I lied
And every word is saturated
With everyone I ever hated.
Everyone who failed to see
The loathing deep inside of me.
Cover it with love so sweet,
Give it to my friends to eat.
Touches, smiles manipulation
Synthesising my elation.
My delight at meeting you,
I know, you're going to love me too.
I can make you.
It's so easy.
You'll tell me all your secrets, freely.
She's so nice.
She's so great.
Broken, scarred
And full of hate.
Happy children,
Tidy life,
Loving friend,
Supportive wife,
Talent,
Opportunity,
Warmth, health, liberty.
Obstacles overcome,
Progress made,
Battles won.
A safe house,
A comfortable bed.
Sick
to my stomach.
Sick
in the head.