17/09/10

I toss and I turn, how cliché.
Nothing new here, nothing new to say.
Or that's how it seems, how it always seems.
Little old me batting for both teams.

I'll lend you my ear, I wont utter a word.
You gurn and you gush, your cheeks start to blush.
Will my voice ever be heard?
You rush out your words, churning.

I hope you realise,
I'm not taking it all in,
Your words are what I truly despise.

But I listen contently, of course I do.
Because that's all I am to him,
And it's all I am to you.
A good listener, taking it all in.
If only you knew of my terrible sin.

The one I want to shriek from multi-story car parks,
From the bottom of the ocean,
But would anybody take notice of such a ridiculous motion?

I want you all to know, what I think and how I feel.
Slowly my insides are turning to steel.
I'm becoming clockwork. Cogs and springs.
This is how I continue.
Why bother becoming attached any longer?
You'll only step on the gas and speed further into the distance.

One day that'll be me, speeding by,
And trust me,
I wont look back, to see you take your turn to cry.
You wont even see me pass.
I'll become nothing more than a silhouette in the sun.
But in my opinion, it's better than being a shadow of my former life.

This wont make sense today,
But when you realise..
You'll know what I meant,
When you saw those tears in my eyes.