Matryoshka

Aherne was right.

The idea of the little family sitting in their living room, gathered around the television is horrendous. Cosy but crippling, a pacified and moribund state – and death hangs around a long time. The scene depicts a failure of human dynamism – the abdication of imagination.

I can’t do that.

I need risk – some danger. I need what I was shown at the age of 11 and 12, what I briefly recaptured at 30 and what I am chasing again. I need to ride the unfettered spirit with others like me. Living a falsehood is corrosive. It rots you from the inside and leaves a husk. The only thing you can do with a husk is find it a factory or office job and settle it in front of a television in the evenings.

Keep your integrity.

Do right by others, but release your spirit. Sooner or later you will anyway. Better to do it while you are alive.