A little bit of childish

-"Just my style".
this is how every relationship starts, well, not every relationship, there are some exceptions, -"God, I can't even look at you". some starts that way, and ends up to be just as shitty as the others, or maybe with a little bit of luck, blossoms into something serious. 
what's serious? i don't know, i've never really been into something serious, i tend to obsess over the one i like, without him having a clue of course. i'd pretend to be as cold as bowl of ice cream. so, as you might have guessed, nothing ever works out, it's for the best, i wholeheartedly loath it when someone tries to take over my personal space.
if we all learnt how to take care of ourselves and keep our distance with eachother, very few hearts would be broken, but what's life without taking risks? expecting a little bit too much? we would sink into a fathomless sea of boredom. But sadly, sometimes, we don't know our limits, and we get our hearts broken many times, which is never a good thing. breaking it once or twice, is a part of life, but over doing it, may lead it to a never healing wound. suicidal thoughts emerge..and here's another wasted life, at a given moment, we all had similar thoughts, of ending it right away, which is normal as long as it's just thinking, not doing. sometimes people confuse the thought with the actual action, thinking of doing something, doesn't really mean we're going to do it. we all had whicked thoughts once or twice in our day to day life. it's a very natural process of the mind, the wandering mind.