Because of You

The silent self harm of believing lies. 

I thought I was happy but I was dying inside.

Slowly, slowly

You rip me open,

Knowing that I can't tell.

I'm too delusional to see that this isn't love.

You are ill.

You have a sick, twisted mind,

And honestly,

I know that you have a broken and bruised heart.

The things you have done to me-

To my heart, my mind, my soul-

Are unforvigivable.

I will never forgive you and i will never forget.

I am not a toy for you to play around with.

I am a person with a heart that can be broken.

But I am strong.

And you will never take that away from me.

Through all the cuts and overdoses,

Feeling depressed and feeling suicidal,

Residential and acute,

I have survived.

And I daresay that I have thrived.

I may not be completely fine,

But I am not dead yet

And I believe this truth:

I am a better person because of you.