Mirror

Reintroduction over,
food eaten,
we stretched out in the bar

She looked deep into me

I haven't seen you smile yet
Where's the excitement?
The old sense of fun?

I was nonplussed

I tried to log the grins,
the belly-laughs

I had to admit I'd been a little dry
Earnest, maybe,
if I'm being kind

I made some excuse
about driving through London;
the seriousness of changing lives

It didn't wash with her

But where's the excitement?
The old sense of fun?

I searched myself to find it

I'm still looking