Love Journal #1 Damage Control

I guess this is a love poem. Or memoir. I don't care really. Maybe more of a love journal. I'm writing this portion on July 26 at 3:46. You won't see this for awhile and this will be an evolution of my feelings until I feel like sending this to you.
Love...At the moment you are strong. Bitter but strong. You are behind stone of protection. But from what is what I really want to know.
I've said this once and ill say it again. It hurts. It hurts loving a girl who has doesn't want to and won't love you back. You rejecting me... Im crying just thinking about the dull ache of unrequited love. Maybe that's why I keep loving you and just can't get you out of my head and heart. I feel! I feel! I feel a pain! Not long ago I wouldn't be able to say that. But now I can! Because I love you! But...you don't love me back.
There's a guy who loves you and you love. Now THAT really hurts. And knowing you can't out class someone who's closer to you and can comfort you in your time of need. You have cancer and I can't even hold your hand to comfort you. I friendzoned myself just so I minimized problems. Damage Control. Fuck! Why can't this be a simple love story with endings and fanfictions galore to satisfy any fantasy? But would I want that? No I don't think I would. Im proud I guess? Of how I love you. I like a good love story but... I think maybe the best ones have bad endings.