A short version of my life

i just want to sleep at night
i don't need anyone to hold me tight
with all my faith and learning i might
find a new way to live and be alright

when i was younger i didn't know much
always had a friend and a reality to clutch
i could bare all my senses and feel my own touch
i didn't think my mind would become a rabbit hutch

before i thought that life was just so
that people do change and that i would grow
i could trust myself and all that i know
only time became subjective and now it is slow

all waking days are hazy and disoriented
its like this memory box is nonsensical and rented
like my spirit needs a detox but it was reinvented
my psyche was switched and the buttons were dented

i need a pain relief and less grief
i guess this is all down to belief
if only i could turn back the clock
i would be happy sorting out the back stock