Buzzed Off
By Bee
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Our hair means a lot to us girls, whether we style, colour, or just pin it up out of the way, it is an expression of our personality and the first impression anyone often gets of us. But when we go for chemo, in the face of all the implications, the loss of our hair should kind of be the least of our worries, yet sometimes it's loss just adds insult to injury. I wasn't very concerned about keeping mine by using the agonizing cold cap, but my sister-in-law who had been through chemo used the cap throughout treatment, and encouraged me to have a go, saying, yes, it's painful for ten minutes, and you are freezing cold throughout the treatment, but keeping some hair does give you one less thing to make you feel like a victim. So I gave it a go, and it worked well for me, apart from a thinning patch on the top where the cap never fits, apparently. You'd think they'd re-design... And I lost a lot at the back and on the sides after my second session, when I was sent to a different place and had a run-in, as some might remember from another post, with the nasty nurse Jane, who snatched the cap off my head mid freeze.
As soon as chemo was finished, my hair started growing back quite quickly, but a lot of it was very short, so I made a decision to have it buzzed off. When I told people about my plan, there were mixed reactions. Some said, oh great! Well, if you want to go mad, now's the time to do it, while your hair's still a mess. And quite a few others said, no, don't do it, you'll hate it. Wait till the short hair grows long enough, then have it cut into a proper style.
Well, the thing is, I've never had a style as such - just long hair of various lengths, worn loose, or else tied, or pinned up, but although, if I pinned the back of my chemo hair up and brushed the long fringe back over the new hair grown in after the 'nurse Jane damage', and it looked like a respectable head of hair, I got sick of trying to pretend it was all there as it should be. So I decided it had to go, and opted for the 1/2 " setting on my friend Diane's clippers, and she said she'd be happy to shave it off for me. A dear friend said to go for it, it would be a new start, and that's what it felt like - finally saying fair well to the chemo hair.
I'm pleased with it. It feels neat and light, and it'll all grow back at the same time. I like that the best of all.
My daughter made a video of the event. Please feel free to watch and have a laugh, as we did. I must say, I found the experience quite liberating. And hey! Hair grows!!!
Bee x
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I spent time watching mine
I spent time watching mine recede around the temples, but I seems to have stopped. Now I just have the prospect of looking like Mr mountain-man prospector. I reckon you did the right thing. Took control of the situation. And it's surprising how fast it grows.
Parson Thru
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cheekbones+pixie cut= very
cheekbones+pixie cut= very very cool!
I did similar when I was about 16 and everytime I went into a shop they'd say 'what can I do for you sonny' - not my finest haircut!
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Love the 'rock chick' look.
Love the 'rock chick' look.
A friend lost her hair after chemo and it has grown back beautifully, thick and lush, and she doesn't have to colour it any more, it is a beautiful exotic siver grey.
Lindy
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Bee, this is such an great piece of writing!
You know, hair is pretty important to men also, but I guess losing it temporarily doesn't seem such a shock to others.
I never lost my hair, but it went very wiry and thin and in fact I did exactly the same as you after chemo. I had the whole lot cut down to 1cm in the hope it would grow back normally ... it did thank God.
I didn't know about the ice cap, but in my hospital they sold excellent wigs for ladies, but (I thought) much more interesting and chic were head scarves (if that is what you call them) they certainly made the ladies that wore them look pretty cool in my opinion.
Funnily enough I found the gloves they gave us to stop the pain of handling cold objects more depressing. I remember, after I finished treatment, seeing a lady on a train wearing the same type of gloves and it brought tears to my eyes.
Super piece!!
Ed x
PS: just saw the video after writing this ...... you look stunning!
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Hi Bee,
Hi Bee,
I've just read your story, then went over to check out your video. What a cool haircut, I think it really suits your face. I'd never heard of a buzz haircut until I read your story, so you've given me a slice of information here.
Just wanted to let you know and I hope things are on the up and up for you.
Jenny.
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Congratulations on the piece
Congratulations on the piece and the video - you look amazing! Hair is very important to us and doing something so radical is part of a new beginning. Thanks for sharing.
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Oh, Bee...I'd never heard of
Oh, Bee...I'd never heard of a 'buzz' cut before, either, but it sure suits you...and with a name like, 'Bee' how very apt. If anyone tells you to buzz-off now, you can...admirably. Lovely video, to boot
A peaceful day, dear Bee, I wish for you.
Tina
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It seemed to look very fresh
It seemed to look very fresh and feminine in the end, and, as you say, nice to have it all grow fresh. Rhiannon (and congratulations to the hairdresser and your daughter, too!)
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Hi Bee
Hi Bee
I've read the piece and watched the video, and agree with the others. It suits you, and fits in with your philosophy of starting afresh and positive. You look very well and happy too. Good on you.
Jean
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Love it! Great decision Bee -
Love it! Great decision Bee - take control. You look so cute too.
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oh good! Did you manage to
oh good! Did you manage to read the writing? It's hilarious
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