The Third One.

This IS difficult to write. There IS nothing about this that I like, one single bit. I am completely out of my comfort zone.

There are three things I don’t like to see, two I used to see when I was growing up, it was always unexpected when I saw them, I was never prepared. But gradually I have forced myself to be ‘OK’ with them. I won’t mention them here. And there is a third. I showed my Husband and asked him, “Does this make you feel strange?” He replied, “No,” Personally, I think that is unfair! Why can’t I feel like that? Why can’t I be unaffected? Why does it make me feel this way? For me, it’s one of the unsightliness sights on Earth! Yes, I would go that far.

I don’t know how to retrain my mind to see it as nothing! It’s not something I see often, and so it catches me unexpectedly, off-guard, and I hate that it does that to me.

I’ve even put off writing about it, for as I write it makes me feel awful!!!! For I know the inevitable, will happen I will have to find a photo……… or maybe I shouldn’t, or maybe, I should NOT let it beat me.

Sadly, today I defeated, my skin is crawling, mainly my face, waves and waves of it!

Will the photo help me take the first steps to overcome? Who am I kidding?

I’ve just decided, NO PHOTO! I can’t cope with it. I’m convinced even in another ten years; I will still feel the same.

Would counselling help, I wonder? I would pay good money too, not for hypnotising or anything like that, but just someone sensible, talking to me, reassuring me, it is OK, nothing to be afraid of.     

So, what is it that troubles me so? Oh dear, I can hardly bring myself to even type the words, so should I just end it here? Is this the end of my tale of woe? Yes, here I must stop. I will have a drink and I will continue in part two. If I was a drinker, I would have a stiff drink but as I am teetotal, I will have a cup of sweet tea.

In part two, I will tell you what it is, and ask you to look at them on the internet, so you can see how it makes you feel.

I feel ‘better’ now that I won’t be facing my fears, by putting a photo to this page.

How about you? Is there anything that makes you cringe? What makes your skin crawl?