Suspended Between Two Worlds

Gold cherry

By skinner_jennifer

Wed, 24 Jul 2024
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Dear diary...writing my feelings

down in a poem at this time helps

to put life in perspective, with all

the niggling traumas that leave

me fretful.

 

A new place awakens requesting

energizing thoughts, that poignant

reconnecting with intricate twist

and turns.

 

While writing I'm surrounded by

music, floating movement and

visual beauty with waves of

sound that calmly dip in and out,

 

so beguiling and scenic the

setting, reminding me of

love and laughter that flutters

like soft butterfly wings on a

cool summer day.

 

I gaze into glint of quartz

crystal, find with greater

eyes what has long been

kept inside; driven by

ancient instincts, clasped

between fingers;

 

I'm working a pattern

across surface,

feeling texture –

channeling sensations

enhanced by emotional

connection.

 

I never imagined the world could

be any different than how I once

knew it in my growing years. Now

cocooned in a quiet place...thoughts

hovering in expectation – weathered

by struggles! Yet keenly aware of

calmness.

 

This temporary existence not to every

ones taste, yet for me at this time of

crippling pain, has created respite from

life's expectations.

 

I'm suspended between two worlds;

one that's elusive but balanced, the

other reality and veiled by uncertainty.

Like petals of a flower...easily broken.

 

 

Photo is my own. The last time

I was able to go for a walk at

Stanton Park before my illness.

 

 

Video was free to use with no

copyrights.

 

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Comments

Submitted by Rhiannonw on

I'm sorry to hear you are experiecing such pain and illness, Jenny. That video is a lovely collection of images. Visiting such places that I have never been to and never will! It is good that we have such available now, and of course memories to revisit and thankful that we have been able to go out into the countryside in the past. I pray you'll find God's comfort and peace. Rhiannon

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

Thank you so much for your kind words Rhiannon. Your prayers are most welcome at this time of constant pain. I'm glad you liked the video, there are so many beautiful landscapes to watch and listen to music, they are such a tonic to watch...as is your comment to read. Like you say, we have our memories and they are precious to look back on.

Your your comment was very much appreciated.

Jenny.

 

Submitted by Insertponceyfre... on

Jenny I'm so sorry to hear you're in such pain. Is it your hip again? I thought they replaced it with a shiny new one? Hope it heals/gets fixed soon whatever it is - do keep on writing - we miss you when you don't!

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

Hi insert,

it's lovely to hear from you. I did have my left hip replaced in 2017, but now it's my right hip that's riddled with constant painful arthritis, which to be honest is worse than last time, I can hardly walk from room to room, and going upstairs is hard work. I could take pain killers, but it would mean taking them all the time, and that's not good either, so I don't take any. I'm going to see a consultant at the hospital on 7th August, so I'll have to see what he says, but I'm almost sure I'll need another hip replacement, my instincts tell me.

I'm trying to be positive, but everything is a hundred times harder to do. Even concentrating on writing is difficult, it was nice to know my writing is missed, I just can't think straight at the moment, but it's still good to be able to read others writing on here.

I shall probably keep updates of how my time goes with my current situation.

Thank you for reading and your kind wishes, which I was very grateful to receive.

Jenny.

 

Submitted by drew_gummerson on

I too am sorry to hear you are in pain. 
 

I loved your poem. It is our Pick of the Day. I am sorry it is late. I read this earlier and then life intruded. 

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

Ah! Bless you Drew, that's so kind of you to let me know. I just feel so down at the moment, so to get Pick of the Day was amazing and those lovely gold cherries were very much appreciated. Thank you so much.

Glad also you liked my poem, it was one that didn't come easy, but I'm glad something good has come from writing it.

Many thanks again.

Jenny.,

 

Submitted by Di_Hard on

Oh Jenny, that is GORGEOUS! How you can make such beauty when you are very sore I don't know, but you fill me with awe and great respect. I hope so much your pain is fixed soon. Please take care of yourself

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

Your comment was so lovely to read Di. The poem took weeks to write, but when it came together I was pleased with how it turned out. Bless you for your concern. I'm not good as I've explained to insert, but trying to keep positive vibes, though it's very difficult when the pain is so strong, and loosing my independence doesn't help either. I just thank goodness my partner is there, though he's just had a cataract removed, so isn't a hundred per cent himself.

Honestly Di the trials of old age are so tiring. For years I never went to the doctors, now all of a sudden, it's one thing after another and I spend my life going from one trial to another.

Don't take any notice of my ramblings, I'm just feeling sorry for myself. Sorry to be so down, but it's good to be able to write my feelings down.

Thanks again for reading and caring.

Jenny.

 

 

Submitted by Turlough on

Hello dear Jenny.

I'm very sorry to hear that you're still suffering with your illness. I hope someone or something can improve your health and mobility soon. I admire you for continuing to write your poetry through it all.

Your words cocooned in a quiet place struck a chord with me and I can understand why you would feel the way you do. I look at my own life and see that I'm very gradually heading in that direction. In my state of reasonable health I hope it's not flippant of me to say that I'm quite happy to not venture out much. The adventures of the big wide world don't appeal as they once did.

Please keep up writing your reflective poetry. It's always very enjoyable to read.

 

Turlough

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

Dear Turlough,

your comment was a real tonic to read. I do hope that as you go into your seventies, you have good health and happiness, you deserve it. 

I think a lot of my hip problems stem from doing too much physical fitness in my forties. Teaching dance aerobic classes nearly every day and weight training too, must have put too much pressure on my joints and now I'm paying for it, trouble is you just don't think these kind of things will happen to you when you're having fun.

I know what you mean about the realities of the big wide world not having the same appeal. We live in uncertain strange times. I think even some of the young people today find it difficult to handle at times.

I want to keep on writing, but my attention span isn't what it was with all this pain. If I do get a new hip, it will be good to get back to some normality.

Your understanding of what I was trying to convey in this poem means a lot and I greatly appreciate your understanding thoughts.

Many thanks again for taking the time to read and comment.

Jenny.

 

Submitted by Turlough on

There have been times when it's been necessary for me to get myself extra super fit for walking and cycling trips that I've sometimes foolishly agreed to go on but generally I've avoided physical exercise for great swathes of my life.

So it seems now, from what you've told me, that I'm benefitting from being a lazy fat slob. I don't know if I should celebrate this or keep it under my hat. I didn't escape completely though as my knees have remained a bit iffy and stiff following the ascent (and descent, which was the worst bit) of a very high mountain in Bosnia ten years ago. 

When I was in my thirties and forties I would have envied the fitness level that you achieved, but long working hours, all those kids we had and difficulties at home left little time for doing anything about it. It was when I reached my fifties that exercise started to become important to me.

I'm very much looking forward to hearing that you've got a new hip, to hearing that you're back to pain-free normality and to reading more of your poetry. In the meantime please keep up that positive attitude of yours. I'm sure it'll make a big difference. I'm sure it'll pull you through.

Good on you Jenny.

Turlough

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

Hi Turlough, you know with all the adventures and things you've achieved in your life, I definitely don't think your a lazy slob. This is the time in our lives when we have to slow down somewhat and cherish those memories we've made.

It's strange, but I always had a feeling in the back of my mind, that I needed to do as much living as I could while I was growing, I think you probably knew that too. When I was in school I hated every moment, mainly because I was picked on alot because I was introvert and slow. But when I left school, my dad saw an advert in the local paper for a a local amateur dramatics group needing knew youngsters to join, I couldn't wait to get involved, it was the best move I ever made, because it brought me out of my shell, and showed me confidence I didn't know I had. I've always believed in guardian angels and I always listen for those messages which have helped me through my life.

Thank you again for your kind words and I will try and keep positive and look after myself.

You take care.

Jenny.

 

 

Submitted by Turlough on

I see a lot of similarities there Jenny.

I will... and you take care too.

Turlough

Submitted by D G Moody on

This poem is beautifully crafted, with a timeless message that reached me in a special way, as I'm now in the stage of life where pain also becomes a companion, but fortunately I can still have my walks. Please keep writing Jenny as your art is appreciated.

Dougie Moody

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

Hi Dougie,

knowing you thought the poem was beautifully crafted with a timeless message means such a lot to me. I think those pains we feel must make us stronger and more appreciative of when there is no pain and we can be...if  only for a short time able to carry on as normal.

I'm really glad you are still able to get out and about, walking is something I miss so much. I wish for you good health and plenty of time to ramble where you want. Stay fit and take care.

Jenny.

 

Submitted by D G Moody on

Thanks Jenny, and aren't we blessed that we can all meet here? And with your poems - sometimes our pain becomes the fertile soil out of which good poems grow - your was a classic example.

Keep well Jenny.......Dougie

Dougie Moody

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

You know I like: sometimes our pain becomes the fertile soil out of which good poems grow. That's such a great theory which I never thought of.

Thank you for coming back and sharing your thoughts Dougie. It was good to hear from you again.

Jenny.

 

 

Submitted by marandina on

"This temporary existence not to every

ones taste, yet for me at this time of

crippling pain, has created respite from

life's expectations.

 

I'm suspended between two worlds;"

 

You have captured the beauty of nature and the travails of aging within the same poem which is quite a feat. I'm sorry to hear of your pain. I hope you get the support you need to get back to normal as soon as possible. Keep writing as best you can just now. Your presence is always appreciated and valued.

 

Take good care of yourself

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

Bless you Paul, for your understanding insight into this poem. I really do hope the consultant I see on the 7th August is understanding and instills confidence in me, I'm so nervous even though I've already experienced a hip replacement before.

I certainly will keep writing as long as my attention span allows. It certainly makes a difference knowing people want to read my writing.

Many thanks for reading and sharing your thoughts Paul.

Jenny.

 

Submitted by celticman on

we're all easily broken, but sometimes we're more than that as you show. 

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

Sadly as humans we live on the edge of so much insanity in the world today. But I will keep my spirits up and continue to stay positive.

Many thanks for your understanding words Jack, they mean a lot.

Jenny.

 

Submitted by Tom Brown on

Good poem Jenny! "Poignant" again!  All the best! Tom

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

Thank you for your kind comment Tom. I'm glad you enjoyed this poem.

All the best to you too.

Jenny.