Endings

Cherry

By Penny4athought

Tue, 19 Nov 2024
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In the days that follow, we will fall into a depression and battle stomach wrenching pain at the incomprehensible diagnosis and seeing the ravages of the disease take hold, will wear down our own health. Depression will battle despair but the victor matters not, both annihilate.

No one should endure this kind of pain, yet too many do. We can try to cure all diseases, find the cause and eradicate it but on the horizon something else will form; something always will.

We are in the human state; the human condition unavoidable and fragile. We know this, but most days we avoid the thought of endings, look to beginnings, make future plans and career goals.Still, the specter is ever present; biding the moment it steps forward to stop time.

The uplifting quote ‘to live each day as if it were your last’ is not without merit. We live only within this second, one heartbeat; we are not guaranteed the next. At any moment it can stop.

Where will we be then?

The big unanswerable question, unanswerable as we live anyway, having no insight into that altered state we can only guess, hope or have faith, but all attempts to understand are equally lacking in surety.  

The spirit of those who’ve left us do not come back to converse about it but they do remain alive in the memories we have of them; the snap shots taken; the things they’d once cherished that sit upon a shelf in memoriam.

Humans, all of us, are in this same dilemma.

We are fragile, time is finite and the best we can do is love those here today, build the best memories, to bridge the inevitable pain of loss that will come after they’ve gone.

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Comments

Submitted by Di_Hard on

This is so heartfelt and moving JoAnne, I am sorry

 

Submitted by Penny4athought on

Thank you Di-Hard- I am struggling to understand the why and feeling the guilt we'd missed something sooner, some sign that could have changed this outlook. It's a battle I am desprate for him to win and I'm hoping for a miracle.

Penny4athought

Submitted by Di_Hard on

I hope so very much, too. Sending you lots of good wishes. Will think of you

 

Submitted by celticman on

All true, and not just for you. 

 

Submitted by Penny4athought on

Yes Celticman death comes for all of us; it plays no favorites. The human condition is unavoidable and hurts the most when our heart's compliment, soulmate, is in jeopardy.

Penny4athought

Submitted by Rhiannonw on

You show how raw feelings can be in anguish. Walking through the valley of the shadow of death is hard for the ill, but so much for the loved ones, who can't know how their loved ones are coping, and feel helpless. An understanding Shepherd with each personally in the journey is so helpful, and we can share our anguish and burden and he can promise to take to his home. Rhiannon

 

Submitted by Penny4athought on

You are so right Rhiannon- I am raw, I feel as if I am bleeding within.

Penny4athought

Submitted by marandina on

Something I have come to realise as I get older is that all that's left in the end are memories. As long as we remember someone they live on.

Trying to make sense of it all probably does boil down to trying to enjoy every moment. Easier said that done in reality but we can try. Deep, philosophical and articularly written. You are saying (really well) what we all ponder on eventually.

 

Submitted by Penny4athought on

Thank you Marandina- I am drenched in sorrow at the moment but it is something, sadly, we all face one time or another.

Penny4athought

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on

It's true what marandina said. Your word are something we all come to ponder on at some point in life. I know I've felt many times so sad and weary missing a loved one that's now gone, but all we can do is to hold on to their memory and make the most of the people we have in our lives at the moment.

I hope you find comfort at this time.

Jenny.

 

 

Submitted by Penny4athought on

Thank you Jenny; he is my heart and I don't know what life looks like without him. We've been together a long time, from our first date when I was 18 and he was 21 and all our years of marriage. There is no day in my life that mattered that he wasn't a part of. I am devastated and I know this rambling post was dark and sad, not my normal outlook, but it reflects my state of mind. Thank you for your thoughtful comment Jenny- as always you try to uplift, and I appreciate that.

Penny4athought

Submitted by Jane Hyphen on

I read this a few days ago, Penny and couldn't think of a suitable comment. Returning to it today, I can tell your words are heartfelt, unfiltered and raw. You must be in turmoil emotionally and I know how that can affect you physically too. Nothing can take away all your shared experiences. Thinking of you and sending positive energies xx

 

Submitted by Penny4athought on

I am in turmoil; everyday feels like a nightmare I cant wake up from--emotions are raw and all outside; I'm unable to shelter them-- so I am thankful for the postive energy you're sending this way Jane. Thank you.

Penny4athought

Submitted by Insertponceyfre... on

Late to this Penny4, I'm so sorry to hear you've been given such news - how wonderful though, that you both have each other to share your life with - the good and the tragic- for so long. I'm sure it will make it easier to get you both through. Sending you a big hug from Over Here, and hoping for your miracle. xx

 

Submitted by Penny4athought on

Thank you Insert for your kind words. I am grateful for the hug and hope for a miracle - yes, we've shared many years that started very early in our lives, but still too early in his life to be accepting an ending, too early in my life for me to let him go - There's so much more to us and for us to share, but it feels like God isn't in agreement and I'm praying all the time.

Penny4athought