I've lost him

Losing something that is a part of you is hard. Especially when you
have wnated it for so long and it then it just goes, vanished without a
trace, only a few blood stains in the toilet that can easily be washed
away. But you ca't wash it out of your head. You can never wash
anything away from your memory, it's stays there to haunt you, its been
hard for me, i'll admit, but in the long run it only makes u stronger.
Believe me