Inside

When was the last time?
How long has it been?
I don’t remember.
And I don’t want to, either.

I feel so alone, empty.
You’re not here with me.
But I don’t want you to
See me
Falling
Faster and faster
Into the deep pool of my interior
I feel ashamed
Of me
But I don’t want to be
Anymore

I am uncomfortable
With everything that
I am so vulnerable
And I am out of control

I was afraid, and I still am a little
I can’t keep up
The pressure is killing me
I was so pure and innocent
But that’s …well…I feel gone inside
I don’t know why

I am just falling
Faster and faster
Into the deep pool of my interior
I am so empty
Scared of the world
And I can’t figure out why

I want to laugh again
Won’t you make me laugh again?
I want to smile and shout
And free myself
Cast my arms up to the sky
And feel the wind in my hair
On my face
Inside

Now I’m just falling
Faster and faster
Into the deep pool of my interior
Waiting
Falling
Breathing
Faster and faster...

But I’ll get to laugh again
And you’ll be the one to make me
Smile and shout
And free myself
I’ll cast my arms up to the sky
And I’ll feel the wind
In my hair
On my face
Inside