Mother and Daughter 4

I wanted to kill my husband, my daughter's father. He just would not stop cheating on me. I asked him why he cheated, if I was not enough for him and he told me that he deserved affairs. They were his reward for working so hard. They were the details of his life that made his life worth living. After that, I could not love him and I felt totally disrespected. I could not even look at him. I did not even wonder why he was like that. Now, I am here in America with my daughter to start a new life. I even feel like changing my name. My daughter's new name is Cathy and she's a stellar fit. I love her very much and I listen to her, but I don't know if I am really helping her out. Everything is so new to her and everything is so confusing. What am I to do? She says that she likes the fact that I listen to her. It relieves her spirit. And what of her spirit? How is it relieved? We sing the song "God is so good" and try to feel the spirit of God inside of us, try to feel the goodness of God. It is there, it is there. God is there in our souls. But I still hate him. He took away so many years of my life. He almost took away my soul and hung it out to dry. That most evil man. I rescued my daughter from him. What am I to do? I will shape my daughter in the image that I have of her, create a great human being. I wish it were that easy. It would take alot of work, suffering hard, pruning away her faults.