comfort crush

it is of course the
waiting, which can
drive us mad, when
one realizes that they
have feelings for someone
else (to put it lightly) &
this is twice as difficult
when the mystery of
whether or not they feel
the same hangs in the
balance &
every day is like a tightrope
walk, where suddenly what
had been a casual approach
to life, now gets honed down
to the wire & one finds
themselves suspicious of
their own motives, practicing
speeches, pondering reactions
& overall, just not wanting to
fuck up any chance with
whoever it is that you got the
crush on---now,
unrequited love can suck,
no doubt about that &
one can start to wonder
just how many times you have
to fall before you stay down
on the ground, refusing to get
up,
but there are alternatives.

the comfortable crush is
different, for it is spawned from
two individuals who have spent
time well before affection
emerged & from this friendship,
companionship in some way or
mere acquaintance at work or in
some other social context, a
bond arises which shows itself to
be blooming at its own pace,
owing nothing to deliberate
attempts at satisfying the
individual needs of one
person, but instead, through that
beautiful meshing of the two.