It's You

I'm stupid
getting to far in front of myself
i can never say truly how i feel
from the sky above to the burning hells below
iv tried to go
yet neither wants to know
i can look up at the stars and hope
my mum or nephew
sister or anyone is watching..
pray as i do every time i look up
pray for forgiveness
i know ill never get it
never receive a sign
or anything like i need ..
though when someone comes into your life
as like you have
special someone
that brightens my day with a ( hello )
makes me think what you up to ?
what are you doing?
are you thinking of me?
I'm stupid
i don't love every one
if i could i would ...
i get a little down when you don't put kisses
or you only put the one
makes me think ..
what up with you beautiful ?
cant bring back yesterday
cant make up tomorrow
so ill say today
i know you
i feel like I'm fighting something
but iv no idea what it is
when we see a fire
our first thought is to put it out
yet a bonfire you don't till you have had enough
a torch on and off when ever you need it
a candle only when theres no power
yet i can feel a flame burning inside
if i looked id probably see you in that flame
its no danger to you
may burn to hurt me
though something inside calls out
through the darkness
its okay ill fight it
though ill just leave you
it will kill me
but you'll be fine
ill maybe stand on a mine
to leave you to smile again
though know you cross my mind
as not for I'm on top of you
not stood in front of you while you on your knees
cross my mind you do
do i cross yours
will i dream tonight
of you maybe
nights turn into days
days into nights
every day passes that not new
but your in my day that new
on my mind and sneaking into my heart
this is new
did you sneak in or did i let you in ?
maybe a bit of both
every word i write
what ever i write is true
i cant get you off my mind that true
id love to be the gravity in your universe
i want to know you feel it
where do you go when you close your eyes
when you get annoyed
when you think I'm annoying you
makes me know you miss me
you listen to me dribble on like no other
just to hear me speak as i do you
your voice so sweet
i feel my heart beat i think it hurts
feels like it has two roads to take yet there can only be 1 it can take
what do you feel ?
you caught my eye
you have my attention
sometimes stand still and close my eyes
just to hear your voice tingle in my ear
but i need slapped
its okay
if you read this and don't reply back I'll know
so ill stop by saying your on my mind
and in my heart xx