Hate who i've become

I have changed
so much,
and I hate
who I've become,
I would never have
used a girl for sex,
now i just want
the rebound,
I would of
never made
anyone i care about
feel unloved,
and now that
was the reason
we split.
But most important,
I promised
i would never become
like every other guy,
and now
i'm the bottom of the heap.