Jealousy

I drown

I deliver what you want to hear

Not just what I think

Do you even consider how I feel?

Do you purposely torment me?

Don't kill me this way

Please let me live

I can't go on seeing you like this

You're too good for that

And yet the longing makes me hate you

Savage jealousy that makes us into animals

I drown

Not just to see you crawl

Not just to see you ridiculed

You kill me

With the way you dance

With the way you smile

I drown

Understanding is a curse

Not a gift

I don't want to know

I don't need to know

And I wish I'd never looked into your dappled

Orange-peel eyes

Wishing is unworthy of you

Kneeling at your feet would suffice

If only you would let me

I drown

Not just to see the look on your face

But to cry

Is to live

And to live

Is the need to accept your fate

Jealousy

Green

Budding in my treacherous heart

I drown

I cannot kick

I cannot fight to the surface of my hate

I cannot destroy those who push my head

Further under the quicksand-slippery surface

Of the deserted shore

No one there to see me go

No one to care

I drown

Just because you're there

Just because I'm jealous