U - Life Update

Mostly I'm keeping a paper diary these days so my abctales one has
slipped until now.

I turned my life upside down and came out the other side. I'm gradually
coming out the other side anyway. Things are getting complicated, but
interesting none the less. One day soon my body will pop out the other
side where my head has been looking around for a while.

The flat sale still hasn't happened. That is so boring and stressful.
Every week it costs us about 4 times more than I'm earning. For
nothing. For an empty shell that was once my home.

Home is now here. In R's house. I like it here. I like our
neighbourhood. I like our garden. I like our house and our new carpets.
I like the fridge constantly stocked with little beers and the wine in
the wine rack. I like the dishwasher. I like the fact that I can wear
all my oldest clothes and he still finds me beautiful.

I love not travelling into central London.

I work part-time in a shop. It's a nice shop. For charity. The other
staff are nice to me. They are mostly retired and they are doing it as
a way of getting out of the house a couple of days a week. I like it
there.

But now I have gone and complicated things and got two other jobs. Am I
mad? I now have a Monday job and a Tuesdays and Wednesdays job, and if
I keep the shop one, also a Thursdays and Fridays job. During each week
I will move from medical secretary to support teacher for students with
mild learning difficulties to gift shop sales assistant. Well, they say
that variety is the spice of life.

I have no pension. I did care about that, but at the moment I don't
very much. I am enjoying the break from serious working life; life with
responsibilities. R has taken on much of my old responsibilities. I
earn money, but if I don't the mortgage will still be paid, we will
still eat. I sometimes feel useless, othertimes vitally important. I
feel confused and unsettled, and then there are the moments of complete
and utter happiness and completeness. Those hopefully will become more
and more.

I don't really have any friends here yet, but I have some that I'm
working on, and that's good. Someone really astonished me today with
such a kind offer. I nearly had tears in my eyes at the thought of it.
How embarrassing. It was a small favour, but I was touched by it.

We now have unlimited internet access. That is wonderful. Even more
wonderful is that R's company are paying for it. Hurrah! I can't
believe how many hours of my old job I must have spent looking at
abctales.