Writers blocked brain drain.

Hitting the dreaded writers block gets me in a pickle, and thoughts such as, 'it's all bollox anyway', start fluttering to the surface of my rather complex mind. I am a blank screen and I am open to the possibility of writing a fantastic story I tell myself, but nothing comes.

I am aware that at certain times the words come pouring fourth in a torrent of inspired 'verbage'. But today alas no such torrent is evident, not even a trickle or a dribble seems to come . Then I start to feel misery and the thought comes that, 'it's all pointless this writing shit. It's not gonna get you anywhere is it?'

Then an idea comes and I start to write, right from where I am, and something miraculous happens, it starts to flow into the keyboard and onto my screen. 'Hey this isn't too bad at all', I hear myself say. I look back over it and spell check and tidy up and think, 'Yea thats pretty good mate, well done'.

'Yea but it's not a major story is it'? I laugh. I laugh at my ridiculous internal dialogue. I love writing. I have loved writing for over 15 years now. It's mostly been personal journaling, but it is writing. I have some stories to tell too, some of them rather funny and some of them very sad. That's all very well the 'inner critic' pipes up, 'but you can't write good fiction can you?'

This inner critic is related to the 'homicidal maths teacher from Hell'. I wrote about him in one of my other stories. He is a merciless tyrant and will not give an inch. But at least I tend to recognise him now, so it's not too bad, I no longer take his every word as gospel.

'So Let's just crack on then', I tell myself. But surely I need to know, where this story is going, is it even really a story, or just a ramble around my mad mind?

The big question is then asked. 'How serious are you about this writing lark?' Oh no, I don't want to answer that now, not while I've got writers block and blocked drains and a broken cooker to boot. Leave me alone and go way. I't just a process that's all, I am writing andsurely that's enough to be getting on with.