Mere Thought

Happening in a moment all that I have worked for appears to be falling in and out of place. Several years have passed since I obtained my freedom from the bondage I was cursed to abide with but now, after all these years, I have at last reached the pinnacle of my achievements. After enrolling into college and paying my bills I met with a mere stranger who offered me a career as a writer; however, a mere thought occurred to me. When I look back on all I have survived through and all that awaits for me in this life I can only state that I am not ready for whatever the future has to throw at me. For the first time in my life I am afraid, but for all the right reasons. Afraid to lose the usual routine I have clung to for so long, afraid of losing the friends and family I have strive to create, and ultimately I am afraid that if I fail I can never return to this life I have come to adore for so long. Still, this is an opportunity for me to show this world who I really am and what I am capable of despite the disabilities and doubts I carry with me that is such a heavy, heavy burden. After all this work and now that my reward is in my grasp I am deeply unnerved that this path in my life may take me down a road in which I may never come out in one piece or even alive for the matter. Its just a mere thought, one small germ of a thought that is keeping me from taking the next step to a more better yet mysteriously shrouded life of comfort and peace. Germinating deep within my subconscious and infecting my very being with uncertainty as to how I can really be the best I set out to be. Thoughts, too many thoughts to put into words. Assuming all this happened for a reason there is no other option but to keep moving forward with my dreams because a life without a dreamed lived is not a life worth anything at all. My one word of advice to you all, dear reader, as the old adage of "Be careful what you wish for" may ring horrifyingly true, but you must also face the fact that you must also sacrifice the life you already have to obtain this life of sated fulfillment. My question to you is this, can you let go of all that you know and love in order to obtain what really makes you happy? Just a mere thought.