One Step Ahead! 240 Words
By Denzella
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One Step Ahead! 240 Words
I woke up with a question on my mind,
When did you decide to leave me behind?
You agreed that I could be the first to part,
Instead, you've left me with a fractured heart.
Did you know that was how it would be?
Were there signs I just did not see?
Is that why you left me to walk alone?
Because I failed you; I should have known?
Please tell me why, was it to punish me,
Because of my lack of sensitivity?
The pain of it is something I can't bear,
Were there symptoms of which I was unaware?
Fifty years together but still too brief,
Although there is no ticking clock on grief.
I wanted much more time than you could give,
Is that the reason you sentenced me to live?
Help me now out of this trough of despair,
To leave me in this abyss is so unfair.
For our daughters' sake I must carry on,
But without the one person I depended upon.
Will I ever look forward to tomorrow,
And reject this all consuming sorrow?
In company my tears must remain unshed,
But how I wish they could flow freely instead.
Though to friends my visage will show dry eyes,
And I have a smile ready to hide their lies.
But to make a life I must bury the pain,
Then with God's help, I might learn to smile again!
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Don't ever think you're alone
Don't ever think you're alone Moya,
When you feel a gentle breeze, or a kindly word is spoken, know that he's there watching over you.
It can be hard if you don't believe the spirit goes on, but I have faith that our loved ones never leave us completely.
Love is so strong.
Hope you find comfort Moya.
Jenny.
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I am beside myself with
I am beside myself with sadness reading this Moya. You express the desolation you are going through with beauty in the words and love. I hope that to be able to write like this will help, not only as an outlet, but also that in a small way, your friends here are able to share a fraction of your terrible loss with you. I'm sorry not to have more to give - words just aren't enough.
Thinking of you,
Deborah Xxx
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Somehow you seem to be
Somehow you seem to be talking yourself through some of the grief, Moya - not to lessen it, but to accept it, and somehow know it will lead through. Even if the tears are kept for private, at least you are able to shed them, and properly mourn while remembering good times. Others may find help in their griefs, through your sharing your feelings honestly. Rhiannon
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Asking why, when there is no
Asking why, when there is no answer. Your words must speak to many people who have suffered loss. Thinking of you xxx
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