U 7/23/02

Work Diary, 7/23/02

The deed is done. I have been promoted to a regional supervisor in the
auto claims unit of Denver, Colorado. Spooky stuff. I've skipped two
levels, out-interviewed twelve other candidates, and I'm already in
training. Also I am scared to death, a feeling I expect to have for the
next 23 ? days.

Am I doing the right thing? I can't be sure. My goal in life was not to
climb the corporate ladder. At the same time, I was worried that at my
next high school class reunion, I'd still be in an occupational job,
while all the people in my class will have moved on to bigger and
better sports cars. Am I being true to myself, taking this job? What
about becoming a writer, or an artist, or a happy homemaker who's a
good cook? Or would I just be crazily bored staying where I am?

Argh. Blargh. Blech. I keeping getting "congratulations" and I feel
like a fraud. Do I get to have the best of both worlds here, or am I
selling out? Will the $20,000.00 raise make it all better, or turn me
into a capitalist swine?

Or am I just a silly whiner who needs to shut up, buckle down, and get
to work?