Locking You Out

I have put away the memories. I have put them in a box. I have hidden the box where I cannot find it. Though untidy, but I have put them away anyhow.

There will be no thoughts of you in this place. There will be no longing for you in this heart of mine. There will no more of you in my life.

To my dismay, you detest me and my self being. I ask myself each day "how cruel can you be?" Sadly, the answers do not float in my mind. So the truth you hold and everything that went wrong remains a mystery.

I walk around each day doing what needs to be done, but I also force myself to not think of you and what was then. I pretend you were never in my life. I keep saying to myself that it was all a dream and it never really happened. The truth be told, I do not know what you were to me anymore.

In the end I only got myself to blame. I should have listened to my instincts. I should have known better. I should have never believed your lies. I always knew you were never going to treat me right. I knew right from the start that you were bound to break my heart.

But I ignored all the signs, instead I took everything you said in. Instead of realizing the warning signals, I left myself fall for you. I put all my hopes and dreams on you. Now I see it was all the waste of my time.

If you say you no longer love me then, I can honestly reply that I no longer love you either. I have nothing but anger and hate when it comes to you and my memories of us. I actually thought you were so much better, but you have proven to me that you are nothing more than a loser. Too bad for you this precious heart of mine has finally locked you out!

The memories will stay forever hidden in that box. I might decide to threw them out once the year is through. Do not expect anything from me from now on. Do ever think I will show you some kind of kindness towards you. You betrayed me and my trust. It was so easy for you to walk away.You have broken everything I thought dear to me.

I hope one day you will get a chance to feel what I have felt. I hope one day you will feel desperation for someone you cared for would just stay. I hope one day someone will make fun of your depression like you did with mine. I hope one day you will learn that playing with true love is not right. There is no need for you to do all that.

So, this is the end, the end of you in my thoughts. No more you. No more me. No more us. I do not think there is ever a need for me to remember you.

So good bye. x