Apologia

Unbidden you fill my secret dreams
recalling all those painful scenes.
I thought we’d said all there was to say,
still you refuse to go away.

I know I took your tender heart
and with betrayal tore it apart.
But what you could not understand,
was non of it was ever planned

Most of all was due to fear,
of losing what I held most dear.
The weakness of a foolish man,
Unwilling to submit to another’s plan.

Oh my love, you could not see
the hollowness inside of me;
the emptiness where love should dwell
that made of heaven such a hell.