People get sad on holiday

I know I do.
All that time to think
you always end up worrying about urologists.

'What if I can never recreate this happiness?' I always think
as soon as anything good happens.
We sit on balconies staring out at
e.g a sunset,
dive into a circular swimming pool
drink posh cocktails with bendy straws
and think about holidays when we were young
when life was a dinghy and the horizon seemed so far away
but the way we've paddled
we made it their in seconds.

'What's going to happen in the future?'
we are all too scared to think
so we concentrate on the past.
Lidos.
Playing Wack a Mole in the arcades.
The billboard advertises an evening with Cannon and Ball.