VOID

My life is empty
No laughter lies here
Just pain and misery
And plenty of tears
Happiness is a word
Sorry is its friend
I wonder when my sorrow will end

What do I do to find blue skies?
Take a few pills to go where birds fly
Make my own joy
Make myself anew
Will this stop my feelings of blue?

I don't have the answers
I don't know who does
Maybe I should be a junkie-
Experience the ultimate "buzz

Ignore what I say
I'm just sad
I yearn for times of good
And less of the bad

There's a crock of gold over the rainbow
That's where I should go
See my boy and tell him I miss him
There's no need, he already knows

What I would give for one last time
Love's eternal, invisible line
Between a boy and his mama
It will NEVER break
No matter if in slumber or wide awake

My heart will ache for evermore
Not a day goes by when I don't think
"What if this, What if that
But it makes no difference
He's not coming back

What do I do to find a smile?
Walk around for miles and miles?
Looking aimlessly for what can't be found
Searching in places that carry no sound

One day my wish will come true
In a place that holds no colour of blue
I hope when, each time I go to bed
That I'll find you in my dreams

My boy, my friend, my big, black, beautiful
EDD