wanted

Why am I so tired of this already? Sitting alone at night with a notepad and pen, writing down all the things I wish I could change about my life and of myself, mostly superficial insecurities caused by the generation of fast media and EDNOS idols. My thoughts wander to why it is I am sitting alone at home, when my mom is at work and my sister safe asleep, not out with people wasting my adolescent youth and getting "wasted". Some nights I fantasize about getting kidnapped by someone¦just to get out of here. I want to curl up with someone and whisper my deepest desires to them. I want to feel free. I want to feel wanted.