Time to get serious about life

Sometimes I think I do things for the best of people. I wish I did everything to benefit everyone around me. I don’t ever want to disappoint anyone, nevertheless hurt them. I want to make people happy. I want to help them. That is why I am trying to major in psychology, but the more I try to become a professional and get life started, the more I disregarded my personal relationship with God. I mean, my Father in heaven has done so many wonderful changes in my life. He has put me in a position I never thought I would ever be in. And I think to myself, “How on earth can I ever forget that?” I am distracted. I am lost and disoriented. I need to get back on track but there are so many things that hold me back. God is almost here and He is only coming once more and if I don’t take off with Him, I am doomed! It is so terrifying to even think about this because; I do not want to stay behind. I want to live in eternal happiness with Him. He sacrificed Himself for me so that I can have a free ticket back home and I nearly tossed it away. I need to pray more. I need to sacrifice my pleasures. I need to do so many things in so little time. He should have always been my priority. I feel like I am in a dark cluttered tunnel with no windows of escape around me and no light to show me a way out. Just holes and darkness and at the end of the tunnel I see a light but cannot get to it. I can always run to it and stomp on everything in my way and only see the light but there are so many things holding me back. I can’t see where I am walking through or if I am even walking, I just know that I am blindly making decisions.
I need to get serious. The signs of Gods’ return are clear. God has no mistake. I do not want to miss it. I rather lose it all here than in God. I rather die miserable and alone, hated by the world, but see my creator, the one man that truly loved me. My Lord.
If you are reading this, please, get serious about life. God is coming and we have little time.