Help me to stay another day

Angels in heaven, dressed in white,

If you really exist then help me to fight.

Help me to stay another day,

Under this cloud that's always grey

I wish the sky could shine bright blue,

But I know my wish will never come true.

Pink is a colour I used to like,

But I fear i'm starting to loose my sight.

For all I can see is the colour red,

On my face, on my hands, on my clothes and the bed.

So black is the colour that's about to come,

When I find the courage to load the gun.