Fear of Fear

Cherry

By Bradene

Fri, 14 Aug 2009
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Baffled by vanishing words
as they slip through a crack in my brain;
I’m scared I’ll forget them
never to be recovered again.

I dread losing my dignity,
in terror of misplacing my pride;
my growing sense of insanity
and constantly having to hide.

Perplexed at the aging process,
integrity slipping away.
I fear, fear itself
Yet, I think dying may be easy, one day.

Certificate U
Life's Funny Little Foibles
Autobiography

Comments

Submitted by Cavalcader on
new Bradene so true every-day is precious well done love all verses. Baffled by banishing words as they slip through a crack in my brain! I'm scared I'll forget them never to be recovered again. Perplexed at the ageing process integrity slipping away I fear I fear itself Yet!I think dieing,may be easy one day.

Submitted by Bradene on
Thanks Julie glad you found this to your liking. Val x

Submitted by hilary west on
Wonderful rhythm and rhyme to this. The thought is pellucid too. One can imagine the fear very well, and as for fear of fear it could give us all nightmares if we were to become too self-conscious !!!.

 

Submitted by Bradene on
Thank you Hilary Glad you liked this piece too Val x

Submitted by pinda on
Like hilary said, beautiful rythm to this. Flow was 10/10 in every verse. terror of misplacing my pride; my growing sense of insanity and constantly having to hide. Wow, good work :)

Submitted by Ewan on
A very subtle exploration of the fear we dare not name, the dreaded A-word. It is in my family, as both sets of grandparents died with it, and my father now has it. As your last line points out, it´s not something you die from, it´s something you die with, at the expense of dignity; sometimes death is welcome. Very thought-provoking. Well done.

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Submitted by threeleafshamrock on
Agree entirely with Ewan's comment. Grandmother and mother, went the same way; I would rather be shot! Great piece that should provoke thought but I'm afraid, that in the case of the 'Big A' it has to be seen first hand to be understood. On the upside, my wife's grandmother lived to be 101 years and was writing letters to loved ones on the day she died. Senility is a visitor, that you only recognise when it is knocking at someone else's door!

Submitted by Bradene on
Sorry to hear about your Gran and your Mother Chris. It seems everyone I know has someone who suffers from it. I'm not altogether sure that a sufferer doesn't recognise it at some stage Chris I know my friends Husband new what was going on with him long before she twigged it and he did his best to hide it and succeded for a while, then inevitably the time comes when the person you've loved and respected becomes a shadow of what they once were, until they disappear altogether. It is indeed a scary thought. Val x

Submitted by Cavalcader on
new Bradene I agree with threeleafshamrock and all experiences life help others.good bad.I could sy loads but I'm not going to Juie cavalcader xx

Submitted by Bradene on
Thanks again for your further comments Julie, much appreciated. Val

Submitted by Bradene on
Very much appreciate your comments Pinda. Thanks Val x

Submitted by Bradene on
Sorry to hear about your Grandparents and your Father Ewan, Yes the dreaded A does scare me rigid having seen three of my closest friends and one of their husbands suffer it. The scary thing is I do lose some of my words lately, but having spoken to my GP about it he assures me that this can be an effect of Hypo-thyroidism which is something that has befallen me over the past few years, my words usually turn up, after I stop panicking and relax (; and of course writing helps me enormously. Thanks for the comments. Val

Submitted by MistakenMagic on
Such a final but sad ending :( But don't worry Val, we're all a little mad - I'm seventeen and I can already feel my sanity slipping away! Keep writing ;) Magic xxx

 

Submitted by sunshine on
A truly sensitive evocation of a difficult subject which touches so many lives. Margot

Submitted by rae1 on
So beautifully penned, very true for many of us and also so, touching. Best wishes, Rachael. x