Reasons

Reasons are the primeval motivations of all things living. Reasons are what drive us to the heights of success or the depths of utter insanity and when we become latched to these motivations they will drive us to extremes we cannot foresee originally. If we choose one path over the other we take the first step in not only creating our future but we also pave the way for all our future generations to follow. But what are my reasons? Should I seek retribution for the loss of a family who never cared? Or should I seek isolation from a world that never accepted me in the first place? Maybe I should just erase my past, forget who I once was, and then just sign my death warrant to make this world a better place, is that the answer? No, none of these are the answer, they were just temporary experiences I conquered despite all the adversity that presented itself and here I stand now a man, an anti-hero, a thing that this world has never seen before and never will see ever again. If I am not me, who will be me? Sometimes the choice makes us and occasionally when you give a man no choice you give him so options so how can he define what his existence is worth its weight in this world. There are some things I admit I cannot answer myself yet being young and slightly naive at my current age, but I have seen things most people overlook day in and day out like sitting next to a few homeless people eating the same meal as they eat, I have witnessed someone who had it all only to take her life right before my eyes, and I have tasted the bittersweet poison of a love that should not have faded but it did when it was the only lifeline I had. Yet, I am no different than anyone else and I will always be me no matter what comes my way; and I will never give in to no ones will but my own. Then again there is always tomorrow to look forward to.