Unexpressed Love

Unexpressed Love

P K Routray

My elbow was

kissed and kissed

till it was burnished

till I blushed

till I told no further

my friend dear.

Unintended, unknowingly

touched my elbow the scarf of a girl

a rare species

co educating engineering stream

Junior, the dream and sweet heart

of my friend, roommate

and laboratory partner.

With no courage to express to other

but me being an exception

articulated through this incident,

his depth and the passion of his love.

The girl left her study in half way

fifty years back.

Friend left the mortal world prematurely

After a year or so

certainly not connected with this love

one sided, may be an infatuation

Both have been lost since fifty years

Still I ponder, and brood to day

Over incident and friends

with fond memory

cherishing and smiling at the young days.

 (N.B – A true story

In India fifty years back only one or two girls from among one thousand students used to read engineering. They are not encouraged to mix with boy students. I  had a class mate a brilliant student, my roommate and laboratory partner. He expressed his longing of love for the only girl student reading in our junior class.But I have failed to help thinking it as an infatuation and it was beyond my capacity. MY elbow once touched and incident was of 1968. The girl left the college half way.Later,  for some reasons certainly not related to this love the friend committed suicide. This is my painful oft occuring memory for me)

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