My Self

This is really good.  

The tone, atmosphere and figurative approach to image making are so well balanced.  

And in the nicest possible way its form and metre took me back to the work of many of the romantic poets.  The metric control creates a real frisson juxtaposed as it is with the underlying panic that threads through the poem.

Writing it out probably helps. Then get on with that outgoing concern for others I guess that usually characterises your thoughts. Your honesty strikes a chord, and hope you feel better both physically and in cheer soon (and never loathe yourself, just loathe the real failings that we need God to work on, and ask him to do so. As you imply it is so easy to loathe the failing of the image we'd proudly like to convey). Rhiannon

another facet of this horrible thing exposed with skill and heart. Well done bee.

This is such a challenging time for you Bee, your expression of those feelings that come to test the spirit are so visible within your writing. I hope that the old saying of time heals and you make a full recovery.

Take care.

Jenny.

'Nothing tiresome and more ugly

than the loathing of a self.' Seems to be the key. I think we've all been there.

it and you, but what can you do but nip away and jettison the day. Don't give up. Don't give in. At least worrying makes you thin. 

Hi Bee

You write this so well - putting your feelings about your illness down so clearly. But you don't give yourself the credit you deserve for picking yourself up after each bad experience and going on.

Jean

Hello again,

Loved this one too though I don't think you have any reason for self-loathing.  It's the condition you have every right to loathe.  ' these past mistrustful weeks.' and 'in copious floods of fears.'

Two standout lines for me.

Moya  x