World of Tears
By skinner_jennifer
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I felt so sad when I got home yesterday,
sitting on the bus minding my own business,
when out of the blue the lady next to me said;
“I envy dead people!” Her skin almost blue,
her eyes so sore and red, gazing at me through
a haze of tears, “I'm in so much pain,” she declared
in a quiet voice...then looking down at her lap
she sobbed, “I want to die...the pain to disappear!”
Turning my head in a casual way I felt ashamed,
but knew I could never find the right words,
I wanted to tell her everything would be okay!
But knew she wouldn't hear what I had to say,
all I could think of was my mum and the pain
she must have felt before leaping to her death,
writing down her feelings those words in a note.
Suddenly all of life has no passion for me;
just wanting to hideaway drown in my tears,
my darkest hour approaching, as I; no longer
able to hang on to life, feeling like a hypocrite,
though I'd seen it all before...just another time
circling around this place where nobody really
cares whether we live or die, for that's all life
has to offer, day in day out going around and
around, holding on; hoping that I won't drown.
But when push comes to shove, death doesn't
seem so bad; like the song said; flying without
wings, soaring high with the birds, feeling the
breeze on my face one last time, before I take
my final breath. Then I thought of the lady on the bus.
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Oh Jenny, we wouldn't write
Oh Jenny, we wouldn't write something so honest and from the heart, unless we were feeling sad and could understand sadness. I really felt your words, and all I can say is that it's a gift to be able to write them because if every reader feels some of the sadness then it is shared and shouldered by as many times, and hopefully a load lessened by as many. Perhaps you were an angel of the living kind for the poor lady on the bus, who may not have needed words, just someone to listen while she poured out her heart. Not everyone is so lucky as we are to be able to write it out and get read, but that day, she had you - sitting beside her, just listening and caring enough to think of her when you got home. If this is a poem of fiction, it still comes from somewhere, please excuse me if I'm wrong, but it seems real, and I'm thinking of you.
xx
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Jenny, You draw attention to
Jenny, You draw attention to the quiet, lonely, suffering ones.
I think everyone feels that way sometimes, sometimes because of illness, sometimes pain, sometimes emotional hurt or disappointment. Sometimes it is someone to look concerned, as maybe a reminder that there are others that might be able to share, or that there could be times ahead when circumstances get better, or there may be good that oneself could do one day soon.
As for physical pain, there is much that can be done these days to help. Ultimately, I know I should have to trust also not only for help, but for the timing of the end of this life, and acceptance through mercy into the future.
Rhiannon
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Jen. Very brave of you to
Jen. Very brave of you to reveal your personal loss here and also your honesty in saying.
"... I didn't acknowledge that poor woman more. A moment that will stay with me for a very long time..."
Regards and take care
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Hi Jenny
Hi Jenny
When I read your poem, I was sure, as Bee was, that it was your real life story. And you told it very well, and we could all sense your feelings.
I'm glad that writing it down helped you a bit. I think you probably helped that old lady quite a bit, by listening to her.
Jean
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Jenny, it's those going home
Jenny, it's those going home without the flood of tears I'd be worryinng about. If I'm ever on a bus (I travel everywhere by chauffer-drivern limousine and by private jet) I hope I'm sitting next to you.
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