Xx KISS ME GOODBYE xX

So this is goodbye.
This is it. Farewell.
I'm trying not to cry,
As I gently wish you well.

I'm feeling a little crushed,
Don't be fooled by my disguise.
Any moment now,
The pain could stream out from my eyes.

I never knew you.
Not like I really wanted to.
And it's too late.
The time has gone, it's just too late.

I try to give a smile, I'm still holding back the tears.
Before, there was always another day, but the days turned into
years.
How could I have been so foolish, to just let it slip away?
Countless missed opportunities; all part of some yesterday.

"So," I say, "Good luck. Hope your life goes well!"
I wish you'd understand; this hurts like hell.
You nod and say something, I'm not really listening.
I'm too strung up; too absorbed in what I'll be missing.

Don't go. Please, don't go.
I can't bear the thought of you going for good.
You're walking away. Don't you even know?
If I know it so well, then I think you should.

"Hey!" I say. You turn around.
I've done it now. I look at the ground.
I can feel the blood rushing to my head.
I'm sure I've gone a shade of deep red.

I look back at you.
"What is it?" you say.
I don't know what to do.
But, please don't go away.

"It's just..." I begin. I'm wondering how it will end.
You shake your head slightly, "It's just what?"
A moment passes by. A sensible word escapes me.
"Do you know," I say, "I think I've forgot."

"Right," you say, "Well, I'll be on my way."
"Actually," I add, "I think you've forgotten something."
"What's that?" you reply. "I haven't forgotten something, have
I?"
I can't care anymore, "You forgot to kiss me goodbye."

You laugh for a moment. "Are you joking?"
"I'm deadly serious. About you, that is."
"You never said before."
"And I didn't let you see.
But I'd rather you didn't kiss me goodbye -
Just kiss me."

16 April 2002