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Listen,

I think there's a period in all our lives. I think we're about eight. Or maybe ten, or twelve. I think it happens to us then. Something fixates to us. Or maybe that is just my life - around that time? Whatever, that's the way it seeems to me.

That period, we carry with us. All those memories. They might mean nothing to anyone else, but to us they are ingrained. They are everything. They are the root of existence itself. Without these things, the universe has no meaning - may never have existed. These are the stakes.

Rawcliffe County Primary School. Apollo 8. Mandy Sawdon. Without these things nothing ever existed. I do not exist. Nothing could have come after. These words. Proof of all the things we did.

Where are we now?

I see everything before me. What was then and what is now. Each or either could be here.

But still I don't see whether I live for nothing or today.