Here's Forever

Every time I think about you I feel so empty,
And when you're not here the voices get louder.
I need to kill this numbness,
It cripples,
It punishes,
Reduces me to tears,
And still I find no answers to my prayers,
But its a sad cage you keep me in,
With wretched promises of sand,
Where everything I try to grasp just crumbles in my hand.

It's you that I want,
How can you just slip away,
Without a trace and no redemption
For how I'm left here shaking,
In seclusion?

It's winter now and on this corner,
Where breath dispels as ghosts,
I hold my thoughts together temporarily,
To remember all the time we had
Free from this grasp of responsibility,
We're growing up together now in mind,
But the world won't stop around us,
Microcosm - it's time to say goodbye,
All those things you wish you'd done,
All those words I wish I'd said to you,
All those times I'd nearly summoned the courage
To tell you how I felt,
It's too late, as you get on the next but out of here.

And in twenty years at some distant reunion
With suits and finger sandwiches and the best of intentions,
I'll meet your eyes and all the memories
Will hit like bricks,
And I can see you breathing again
In the middle of that empty street,
Where we said our goodbyes through curtains of tears,
For now though I'll hug you and wish you well on your way,
And as I leave,
I'll realise I've missed your smile.