Somewhere I Belong

Cherry

By V.C.Willow

Sun, 22 May 2011
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20 comments
 

I remember age six
As my peers played kiss chase
Mid run realising no one was running
To kiss me
An abstract idea that I did not belong
Formed in my mind like a
Fist of acid
That clenched my stomach
And sent fire to my cheeks
Turning, I walked away
To sit in a solitary corner
No one noticed.

Age Eight I remained in the
Corner of the playground
Looking out
Daring myself to jump the hip high wall and flee.
But I remained.
Telling myself comforting stories
That over the wall I would fall
Into a land of tiny people
And there I would be queen.
Playtime ended
And I was flung back to the
Rank of tolerated outsider

As youth gave way to my teens
No longer safe to sit with my back
To the world
I secured myself against a wall
I remained head bowed
Head in book
Safe once again from the truth
That I was somewhere I
Didn’t belong

And now, now my twenties have flown
I am still the caged bird
Trapped in my own silent world
Head bowed behind my books and
Computer screen
Still fearing them
Far away from my childhood home
Still searching for somewhere
I can belong.

22-5-2011

Certificate U
Poem
Poetry 2011
Drama

Comments

Submitted by Insertponceyfre... on
I really enjoyed this

 

Submitted by luigi_pagano on
A very poignant piece, V.C., that well expresses the perceived rejections of a child by one's peers. How odd that a small incident which occurred in infancy, on the playground, can lead to such insecurity that it cannot be shaken off in later life.

 

Submitted by Silver Spun Sand on
Me too, VW. Well done on the cherry;-) Tina

 

Submitted by V.C.Willow on
Thank you Poncey for reading and commenting. Much appreciated V.C

Submitted by V.C.Willow on
Hey Luigi - Thank you for the comments and for having a look at this. The sense of being an outsider looking in is expressed here through the incidents in the different verses, but the feeling of being an outsider for me has always and will always persist. Thanks again for your kind comment, it made my day. V.C

Submitted by V.C.Willow on
Thanks Tina, my first cherry and I'm stoned to be given them...sorry couldn't think of a suitable cherry pun :-)

Submitted by V.C.Willow on
Thank you blighters rock your kind comments are really appreciated. V.C

Submitted by fatboy74 on
Something very haunting about the moment you describe the abstract idea that forms in a six year old mind. Enjoyed this poem and well done on first cherry. :-)

 

Submitted by V.C.Willow on
Thanks fatboy - am chuffed to bits with first cherry, and thank you for the kind comments. always grateful for a bit of feedback. Have a great day. V.C

Submitted by V.C.Willow on
Hi Nathan. Thank you for the support and insight about the poem. You're very kind :-) V.C

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on
Hi V.C. don't know how this one slipped under the carpet so to speak, but I really enjoyed reading it, somehow I could relate to it, as I went through a similar experience at school. By the way congratulations on the cherries, well deserved. Jenny.

 

Submitted by V.C.Willow on
Thanks Jenny (she says blushing). Always lovely to receive your comments. You're always so generous with you thoughts and compliments. V.C

Submitted by seashore on
I missed this one - don't know how as I can really relate to it and enjoyed it very much.

Submitted by V.C.Willow on
Thank you seashore. Your comments are as always very welcome. V.C

Submitted by oldpesky on
Hi V.C. A great piece of writing. Congrats on the cherries. With writing this good I hope you have found a place to belong - ABCTales.

Submitted by V.C.Willow on
Thanks old pesky. Your compliments are very welcome and appreciated. You're very kind. V.C

Submitted by ScoZen on
Hello there VCW. Oldpesky has already said it, ABCTales. And there is no need to "(she says blushing)" We can't see you, so your safe and sound here on ABC.
ScoZen

Submitted by V.C.Willow on
Thanks ScoZen. You can't see but I'm grinning ear to ear. V.C

Submitted by Frances Macaula... on
Your writing reminds me why I MUST remember to log in and read the latest postings. Well done on both the poem and the cherry. Thanks also for taking the time to read mine - and you are not alone here.

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Submitted by V.C.Willow on
Thanks Frances for your lovely comment. sometimes an idea or theme inspires you and before you know it the words are just falling over themselves onto the page. I was very lucky that this happened with this little piece. Looking forward to reading some more of your writing All the best V.C