disambiguation

This what they teach you;
compartmentalisation (memorise this word)
cut out each emotion, place in a labled box
catergorise, cross reference
guilt; see also anger
see also love, fear

You learn how to reality check;
'not hugging you doesn't mean he doesn't love you'
'fucking you doesn't mean he loves you'

They give you mantras;
'I am a good person' and
'I am a strong person'
and you say them to yourself
in the mirror, making eye contact
like they told you

You keep a diary of dreams;
A glossary of symbols
flying equals freedom
drowning equals re-birth
you make notes of your progress

You know when you're cured;
When music seagues once again, into the background
when you can do the maths, the pros and cons
the blacks and whites
when you can command your heart
beat steady, pump blood, play dead
When all your poetry is re-arranged
into a text book.