A Year

A year. In a year, magic can happen. In a year, I could change the world. In a year, I could change my life. But in this year, my mind remains with you. My heart, head, emotion rests with you. It has been a year, since you departed this world. Since you left everybody behind as you rose high up into nothingness. It has been a year, since I slumped into nothingness, a mindless human with fragmented emotion. It has been a year since I cried more than I’ve breathed, more than I’ve blinked. It has been a year since you died today, and even now it feels like I’ve just found out, every day my mind will think of your name. I still find myself crying myself to sleep, crying when I’m alone. I still find myself sad, depressed even sometimes. But within that year, I have changed. I found happiness in the darkest of places and though it may not be perfect, I found contentment, and for that, I am grateful. I am grateful that your passing has taught me to be somebody new, a better more refined person. I am grateful you taught me true emotion, true sadness and true happiness. I am grateful for your company, and our laughs at your nicknames. I am grateful for you, even if we soon drifted. You taught me to appreciate life, and for that, I thank you.

Rest in peace, my dear friend, you will forever remain missed.