Falling

She likes to be by herself
           She hates to be alone
She longs to run away
                   and she just wants to go home

She wants to give up
            and she wants to carry on
she lives in the past
                             but knows she has to move on

She wants to live
                     but she doesn’t know how
  
                  she's  
                    wasting
                       losing
                         her time
                           and her mind says 
 it’s too late now

 She couldn’t tell you what she feels
                                             but she feels it every day
 sometimes she has the words
                            but then they
                                            rot
                                                  and 
                                                        fall
                                                             away 
She wants all that is not hers
                                   she wants nothing at all
   
because she climbed so high to reach it
                                               only to    
                                                          slip
                                                               and
                                                                    then
                                                                         fall

She'll smile on the outside
                                   but inside she'll scream
They hung her so high 
                               and now she's
                                                   tearing
                                                            at
                                                               the seams 

She used to  feel it all 
                               but now she only feels numb 
she saw her life come together
                                    then watched it
                                                          all
                                                              come 
                                                                    undone 
she used to be in control 
                                now she's losing her mind 
she was so far                                                                                                        ahead 
                     
                   and now she's fallen
behind.  
 
She feels herself falling
backwards
                   out of time and out of space 
she wants to be her old self again 
                                      but she can't find her          place

She'll keep falling backwards 
                         and she knows she'll never land 
because she makes the same mistakes 
                                and she'll reach for no one's hand

She was always falling
backwards 
but then she hit the ground 
because he said that he'd catch her 
but she fell and he wasn't around.  

She's a foolish, fragile thing now
she's a shattered, broken heart
and now she's
f
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          l
             i
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                   g
in pieces, falling 

backwards
and
f
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        l
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apart.