Every Third Thursday

Cherry

By Bee

Tue, 20 Oct 2015
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As the hours March on to Thursday 

people try to reassure me that I'm almost 

there - just one more stop to go -

after this, the penultimate punishment.



But penultimate means still

two more. Six weeks 

of feeling sick, drug side-effects 

accumulating in the system. 

Penultimate, or not - 

I keep thinking about Thursday. 



District nurse says, sensibly - Tick off 

every thing accomplished as another 

step behind you on your journey to recovery.



But a neighbour threw me yesterday,

'So have they told you 

what your chances of survival are?'

I told her that I'm still not sure. I hadn't thought 

that far ahead, I'll let her know, if 

and when I'm going to cark it.



And a friend brings dubious comfort 

with deep spiritual wisdom -

'All of us are going to die,

and none of us knows when, or why...'

Lifespan's predetermined, she believes,

so what's the use of worrying?

Or trying?



But I'm not fretting over lifespans - 

I'm just thinking about Thursday, 

and dreading it.

Certificate PG
Poem
Autobiography

Comments

Submitted by Rhiannonw on

I suppose it's not just Thursday in itself, but the looming of the start of the tunnel again as you say. It must be very wearing/wearing. Having chosen to go through with it, you're doing what you can, partly for the sake of your family I think, and have to ask grace day by day. You have shared many moments of cheer on the way. Rhiannon

 

Submitted by Bee on

Thanks for all that, Rhiannon. 

X

Bee

Submitted by Starfish Girl on

One step at a time I suppose but some steps are giant strides and not baby steps and I expect that Thursday's step is one of those giant ones that takes a lot of thinking about. Difficult to stay positive but your writing I hope helps, and I'm sure helps others.

Take care.

Lindy

Submitted by Bee on

Thanks Lindy.

x

Bee

Submitted by alice sunderland on

with friends like that who needs enemas! ..Hope Thursday goes ok for you. 'keep ahad '- as we say in geordie-land. Will be thinking of you.

 

Submitted by Bee on

Thanks Alice - made me smile.

x

Bee

Submitted by Insertponceyfre... on

oh dear, yes I suppose you will be getting all the terrible foot in mouth and otherwise comments. I'm so sorry Bee. Perhaps I wil try to find a particularly awful motivational poster site if I can remember what the address is. it will hopefully make you giggle a bit (or at least count your lucky stars you live nowhere near the author).

 

Submitted by Bee on

Thanks  insert - do let me know if you find it; I could do with a giggle. 

Bee

Submitted by Bee on

For the cherries - smiley 

thanks.

Bee

Submitted by Jane Hyphen on

Bee it must be so difficult with these treatments looming like dark clouds. Laughter, small treats, little things to keep you going, friends with fur who don't say the wrong thing. I really enjoy reading your posts, keep them coming and best wishes x

 

Submitted by Bee on

Thanks for the encouragement, Jane. Was worried about reading too gloomy. 

Bee

Submitted by Silver Spun Sand on

Hello there, Bee.  This reminded me of my daughter's radiation treatment sessions.  After the very last one they gave her the bespoke facemask she had to wear to protect the 'good' side of her face during her treatment.  We brought it home with us on the train from London to Bedford and that evening, as soon as it grew  dark, she lit a bonfire, with, you know what, given pride of place at its very summit.  That about said it all, and more, I thinksmiley

Shall be thinking of you.  Atta girlsmiley

Tina

 

Submitted by Bee on

What a triumphant moment and such a great vivid memory, Tina. Thank you very much for sharing it.

Bee

Submitted by Philip Sidney on

Tough times, wishing Thursday and its aftermath a speedy departure. yes

Submitted by Bee on

Thanks for the wishes, Philip. Means so much.

Bee

Submitted by jeand on

Hi Bee

As awful as your treatment has been, you have survived it so well - and even come out with some positive cheery thoughts. We are all thinking about you and wishing you well, and can't wait for four weeks to be over, so it will all be behind you.

Jean

Jean Day

Submitted by Bee on

Thanks Jean, that means a lot. 

Bee

Submitted by celticman on

very human to worry about the things we worry about, living and all it brings, every Third Thursday, I guess, gives you something to fix on and hope it will be over, for all the right reasons. I  hope your race is won. 

 

Submitted by Bee on

Thanks CM.

Bee

Submitted by VeraClark on

God, couldnt you just shoot well-meaningblethering idiots. I like this because it just ignores them and moves back to the focus. Thursdays. Love to you.

 

Submitted by Bee on

Ha ha! Lucky I don't have a gun! Glad you liked it. Thanks Vera. 

Bee

Submitted by hudsonmoon on

know that I think of you when I need a shot of inspiration. Love and hugs to you, dear lafy. 

Rich x

 

Submitted by Bee on

Lovely to hear from you, Rich.

Thank you.

x

Bee

Submitted by Deliberately Ev... on

I like Alice's comment. Sometimes people say the strangest things in attempts to comfort.

The beat of your heart is the mellifluent rhythm to my soul.

Submitted by Bee on

So true. Thanks AE.

Bee

Submitted by Denzella on

Dear Bee,

As usual, you exist in the real world and face the stark reality of your situation with great fortitude and honesty.  Your journey must be an inspiration to other sufferers.  I don't have the right words to comfort you but know that you are in our farts. Whoops!  Hearts, I meant hearts!

Moya xx

 

Submitted by Bee on

Dear Moya,

that I am remembered in such kind farts is my greatest cheer - infinitely comforted by that.

Thank you so much. 

x

Bee