New Year

A beginning of a new year, for some, is a milestone. A time they can be proud of, that they made it through the year just about alive. A new beginning for some is nothing, another day in a never ending rotation of the Earth. A new year for me is not a fresh start nor a new beginning, but a reflection. A time where I can sit down and think, what have I been through this year. Well, for starters, I found love. Like many from an outer perspective this is so minimal, but for an individuals reality, it's almost everything. 

I found happiness in myself, not through others. I have accepted many things, I have accepted death, and I have accepted that my friend is gone. I travelled, I climbed mountains and did unimaginable things that two years ago, I would not have thought I would ever do.

I also befriended hardship - an old friend of hidden, suppressed memory. An interior strength was built, that some may understand, and others may not. But I understand, and that's all that matters.

I found what influences me, whether it be to be happy or to write, or to conquer something I wouldn't have, finding this influence helps, trust me.

A new year, now, isn't on reflection - I have things I want to accomplish, a set of goals to keep me happy, to keep me entertained and curious about the world. I have things I want to do, places I want to see, people I want to meet and more importantly, I want to become who I want to be, corny as it may seem, the more turthful I can be.

Growing up allows you more freedom, and this I have experienced within the last year, and this freedom is big, big enough for me to do what I want - freedom is important, it's important to think, maybe even the most important thing to do, in my opinion. Having the ability to think is refreshing. I read a book today, an amazing book that influenced me personally, that made my inner self want to strive for something even further than something I was already doing before. 

Today, isn't a reason for change, that comes from within, however today helps me broaden my mind, and allowing me to do that will throw a whole lot of new experiences in my way for another year to come.

Happy New Year.