chemo 2 - session 2
By jeand
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Cheo 2 -session 1 day 5
I suppose if this is supposed to be an honest story of what it is to live with and no doubt die from cancer, it is important to mention the bad bits as well as the good.
I was very pleased with my first 4 days after chemotherapy - and it was only on the 5th night that I had a very unpleasant experience. It might have had nothing to do with cancer or chemo, but it made me scared to death. I woke in the night, having had bad nightmares, which probably doesn’t mean anything - and I felt just awful. My daughters say that a description like that is worth nothing - but all I can say is that I was totally out of control of how I felt, and I knew if this was going to be a regular feature, I was not going to be able to cope with 6 months of chemo.
Day 7
The next night, I was scared to go to bed - fearing it would happen again, but remembered that I had been given anti-nausea and steroid drugs for those first three days, so hoped that taking at least one of them again might do some good. So I took an anti-nausea drug - I didn’t have nausea so it seemed a bit like cheating but this time, my evening session was tolerable. I woke for about half an hour, and had pulsing discomfort in my brain, and pressure. But perhaps only a 1/10 of the intensity of the night before.
But my chemo is not supposed to have brain side effects - they list diarrhoea, nausea and vomiting, but my digestive system was working pretty well.
So in doing my online research I asked google if Iranitcan can pass the blood - brain barrier and it can - and can even do some good in helping with some types of brain cancer So maybe that is what happened. My brain got a dose of the nasty stuff and reacted rather strongly to it.
Doing more of my research today, I wanted to see what peritoneal cancer looked like. I don’t really want to give it a name - but it it looked like a “ring of roses” that would help me visualise what was happening to me. The pictures disappointed me. Nothing pretty or fanciful about it. I spreads quickly across the outside edges of the intestines and on the shiny surface, little nodules form. These are sticky and manage to go between and on top of bits of the small intestines, blocking them. They can also block the ureters. If you have chemotherapy, it takes about 2-3 months for them to regrow after the treatment has finished.
Day 8
If I were on my old chemo, I would have to be going back for the next dose, but thank goodness I have another week to recover. Last night I didn’t sleep at all - or maybe the odd doze just before I got up. No reason why. But I have had a short nap and feel like I can cope for awhile now.
Session 2
I had a similar experience with the chemo session, but only one was necessary to get the cannula in. My daughters and I decided to ask for a different distribution of the extra drugs that I take home, and they agreed that we could stretch the steroids out for another two days, but using the same overall.
Now it is the second day after the session and I had a good night. I have agreed to go on the second added in chemo drug for the fourth session. But I am feeling positive and the nurse said I looked a lot better. I still have my chemo curly hair.
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Fingers firmly crossed that
Fingers firmly crossed that the tweaking helps Jean - thank you for keeping on with these pieces, and I'm so glad you're feeling positive once more! (and hurrah for the hair success!)
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Hi Jean,
Hi Jean,
I too hope that the positive results you mentioned at the end continue. Keep the determination going Jean, you are a legend.
Jenny.
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Glad to hear from you. Been
Glad to hear from you. Been wondering how you were getting on. Such difficulties waking up in the middle of the night are much worse than in daytime. i hope you are reasonably comfortable in the daytime, feel coherent in thought. The Lord be with you at all times. love, Rhiannon
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Hi Jean
Hi Jean
You are right you need to describe your treatment 'warts and all'! Both to help you and others who may be reading this. Even when healthy lying awake at night brings on all sorts of horrors.
Still positive comments in spite of. Surely curly hair is good outcome.
Stay strong Jean. As has been said you are a legend.
Take care
Love
Lindyxx
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Good to hear from you, Jean.
Good to hear from you, Jean. Though sorry to hear these rounds of chemo have been more difficult. Nightmares are horrible when they make you fear sleep. Hear's to wishing you more restful sleep and comforting dreams from now on. Thank you for continuing to share this with us. It's our Pick of the Day. Do share so others can read it if you can. Your positivity is an inspiration so the painting I chose is called Hope by Burne-Jones. I hope it's ok with you as a choice. It's in the public domain too.
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Congratulations on the golden
Congratulations on the golden cherries Jean, and a VERY happy birthday for Wednesday. I hope you have a really wonderful day (and can manage to eat the cake)
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there aren't that many good
there aren't that many good bits. But you tease them out. Thanks for your journal from that faraway place many of us will visit.
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That was really clever of you
That was really clever of you, to work out about how to take your drugs so as to avoid the bad night! Having a bit of control and using it well! As always, you write so clearly and with no self pity at all. Everything you say is both inspiring and helpful! Thankyou so much for writing. Some words I've never seen used outside books - but this one's just right now - You are indomitable!
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Hi Jean. The journey
Hi Jean. The journey continues and you take us with you in your writing. It's a rollercoaster for sure and we are all rooting for you. You are one of the bravest people I know. Keep smiling and stay positive. Yes, definitely an inspiration. As always, a carefully composed piece that tells it like it is. Take care. Paul x
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